Dear Me, :-)

Dear Me,

Hi…. how are you doing these days? I am very sorry for not writing to you for such a long time. I hope everything is going fine. I don’t even remember when was the last time I wrote to you. But you know what, even you have not contacted me in all these years…

Anyways… I have always been thinking about you… Hey, do you remember the time when you were learning to ride a bicycle and you bumped into a person. You must have seen your face at that time. You were so scared as if you killed someone…hehe… And then you went all the way back to your home walking and weeping just to discover that the person was your dad’s friend and he was playing around with you. Actually he had already called your dad and told about it. And what about the the Diwalis? You sincerely used to take part in the prayers…. But actually praying Him to finish the ceremonies quickly so that you could begin your stupid ‘crackers bursting’…. I used to tell you a million times that its just not good for your health, but you just did not want to listen to me… And then.. you remember the result pretty well…

Well, these are just a few of the memories which I will always cherish… My brain is just  full of such memories..I will always remember the good old times passed with you….. But now a days you don’t seem to be the same guy as you earlier used to be. Ofcourse a lot of things change with time, as they always say…. “Change is the only constant thing…”

All these years I have seen you grow, I have seen you learn, have seen you experience, commit mistakes, then learn from mistakes, understand the things taught by this world, understand the things not taught by this world and what not… I am glad to meet this you with a larger domain of everything, say thinking, interests, working, friends and yes almost everything…. I do like this new you but I don’t know why I still miss you … You know, the old you…. The kind of person you earlier used to be, the way you used to think about various issues, the perspective you used to possess earlier, the way you used to talk, the way you used to hang around and various similar things… I am not saying at all that I don’t like this you but its just that sometimes I feel as if you are a stranger to me…

And this is just not possible as you and me are identical, we are same…. So, how is it possible that you seem to be a stranger to me ? ….

 I am not sure if I am making any sense to you but I am very sure that if not today, one day you will surely understand what I am saying….

Anyways, sorry to end the letter this way, leaving some unanswered questions for you…. But still…. Stay in touch…. You know we really need to communicate more… Oh by the way, happy holi .... :-)

Take care…..

Always with you,

Me.

LIFE.... !!!

Life, What is life ?

The cry of a new born baby,
                or the laugh of a kid,
the energy of a youth,
                or the ambition of a new graduate,
the contentment of a happily married daughter's father,
                or the faith of the grandparents...
Why do we aspire something,
                which will soon get destroyed,
Why do we strive for someone,
                who will soon be separated,
Why are we happy about some possession,
                which will soon be lost,
Why do we love this life,
                which will soon be demolished,
Where do we find Life,
                and where are we ought to,
How much should we treasure Life,
                and how much be detached to,
These questions may never be answered,
                if we can't answer,

Life, What is life ?


                                 ------ Ayush Jain

Entering the new decade.....

Its been a while now, since I wrote anything. Well, my last post was in November, it doesn't mean I didn't come across anything worth writing, but I have been lazy....;-).
Anyways, for me, the life has been kind of ok. Now is the time to fix things up. I have been very very lazy these days. But from now on I will try to manage well, coz I know it very well that if I lose this ongoing time, I will have to regret for it later. Everyone here is busy with something or the other and here I am sitting and wondering, may be I should have thought of some other career option..... hehe.... really computers are just not my thing...
But, some people suggest that everyone goes through this kind of phase. We just need to stay positive and of course, start something worthwhile. This has not been my kind till now. The life here in the last couple of years has changed me a lot. I used to be a guy who used to plan almost everything before doing anything, and now this is me, I hardly remember, the last time I used my tiny diary. Yes, this is what engineering does to you... beware !!.. But at the same time I believe that it is fine, after all now I somehow seem to be learning to handle things at the last moment. But really doing that always is not satisficing....
So, for me, I guess its time to change now, again.... And this time for my own good, I may sound selfish, but at times we have to be so. As they always say,

"I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody. "
Bill Cosby

Well, now I need to give people a second chance, and I will begin with myself now....
Nothing much to write now...
First Internal Exams coming up from tomorrow...

Habits die hard. .

Many people in this world make a hell amount of resolutions for the so called "New Year".... And as the year begins, slowly and gradually, those resolutions vanish somewhere without even making a beep.. I wish we had a mechanism through which we could monitor ourselves and rate ourselves on our own parameters constantly.. like a software for websites, or may be search engines... whatever...

May be whenever we are about to break some of our resolution, it will make some awkward beep sound to make us realise our fault... You know, something like that..

If we have a mechanism like that, we will be able to see ourselves outside ourselves, and that is where a lot of difference is created. If a person is able to see himself detached from himself, he can analyse himself well, see as to where he is heading, is this where he really want to go ?? How good is he  managing his life in terms of... whatever parameter one wishes to use.... But, all in all, this kind of analysis will really help us monitor that whenever we think we are contented with our ways of living, with our attitude towards various issues in our life; are we really supposed to have that feeling in our mind ?? Considering, the ultimate goal or aim we intend to achieve...?? Sometimes, in leiu of finding peace we comfort ourselves by taking a break, we think that taking a break from all the issues of our life for a while, we will be able to handle things in a better way when we return; don't know about all; but at least in my case it really doesn't work. In fact it makes things worse for me..Sometimes we just need to understand that whatever we need to handle, can easily be done in the given time frame if we just stay calm and maintain our inner peace... But obviously that doesn't happen....

We rather subconsciously start worrying, and this is the point where problems begin coz our inner peace balance is disturbed.. May be a lot of practice is required in maintaining inner peace, and taking a break may be helpful for people but for me, it really doesn't work....

One solution can be, to pen it down.. Whatever needs to be done should be written down, with the time frame required.. Hmm.. but this idea is better said than done... But at least while doing this we get a lot of self motivation that yes things can be finished off... But it has got its own cons, when we slowly watch that we are behind our schedule, it moves our nerves. In some people's views, this condition may not be good for the other tasks to be completed, but in my point of view, this condition is pretty good if we don't reach saturation.. The reason being that this kind of situation brings out the best in us. As, it is rightly said "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.." ..

And so, to an extent this helps us.. Because, we are able to push ourselves out of our comfort zones.. The best in us can come out only if we are out of our cozy comfort levels.. So, we may at times feel frustrated, and long for a break, but we ought to be mentally be strong and keep going and display our endurance till the task we thought to complete is not over...

I guess am deviating from the title.. Hehe... Anyways, may be that is why the blog title is The World of Random Thoughts... coz the flow of thoughts has no boundaries..Anyways, lot of useless stuff has already been added, so I better go off now... 

Exams coming up... Again that Term End stuff.. I find it really stupid to have so many exams... May be in my next post I will write more about...."Exams"..

Feeling sad sad sad. .

What to do when things are just not going your way. .  Everything you do, goes wrong. . Whatever you try fix up goes messed up.. However hard you try and work on something, ultimately, the result is absolute frustration, kind of a failure... Whom should you blame when you think that its only you coz of whom all this mess is taking place... Everything goes negative and you just can't see any hope of improvement.. Whatever you expect, things go absolutely go the other way round.. In such frame of mind, we think its better not to expect anything even from ourselves, coz every damn thing you try goes wrong wrong wrong !!!... Need a lot of patience, peace and may be quite other things I can't even think of at this point of time..

Yeah.. I guess each one of us goes through this phase many times in life when not even a single ray of hope appears... . Well, I think this is the best time of life coz He wants us to learn some very crucial lessons of life and is somehow saving us from situations which can be worst than ones right now.. So, that may be the reason for this "phase". . We learn a lot during this time, we get to know our true friends, true buddies, and also the true faces of many people are revealed... But these things don't matter a lot in life.. What truly matters is that you get more matured, more experienced and of course you will be handle yourself better in a similar situation in future..  So, may be we just need to be patient and believe in ourselves that inspite of everything going wrong I can rise up... again ... and conquer. Am actually privileged coz the winner did not have to go through all this and he missed a lot of opportunities underneath failure which I could access coz of being a "failure"..... Or may be he did go through all this.. that is why he is the winner now, and not me... Ahh, this is indeed a good sign, if I capitalize upon the opportunities underneath "failure", I can be the next "winner".. Wow, thats great, I had to learn some important things which I need to be a winner and that is why I am not a "winner" but a "failure"....  Oh great, now I got it, "failure" is a state of mind, if you accept it as an opportunity (or opportunities) it is a phase before failure, as they say "If you have never failed, you've never lived..."... And if  we don't see the positives of failure, well, this is an alarming bell, coz another failure awaits you, and yet another failure and it goes on and on and on, till we learn to see the optimism in it, only then we get the hint that yes failure is the one just before success... As they say... "Success is just one more try..."

Hmm.. now am feeling great... no more feeling sad sad sad... Because now I know what to do...
I don't understand why don't I come to know what is going in my mind, until I blur it out here and there... somewhere...

With this note, I sign off... Have a good day, whoever reads this stuff, hehe...

Does Creativity lie in fast life . . . .

I believe it is quite an unending debate.. Creativity and fast life seem to be the two ends of the sea, from one end other can never be visible. But we need to think that if we all will be striving towards the latter, I guess soon we will be exhausted and get burnt out... In this state of mind, when we feel tired of events, associations, and other practicalities of life, and we wish to spend some unspecified amount of time all alone, creativity takes over. This is the time when we create some things which we may not have created ever in our so called "fast life".. It is mostly found that those people who like things to be fast and always are running to achieve something, are not creative.. I don't have any stats to prove this though..
Well, got some assignments to complete, so to conclude, I think we need to keep a balance between the two, and have to be creative and at the same time also keep pace with the fast life...

Precision

Precision comes with time, but we don't want to follow any process long enough. Perfection comes with time but we are happy with superficial excellence. In growth, there are no repititions. In repitition, there is only stagnation. Life is not about what we do, but is about the quality we bring to everything we do. If it is not long enough, we can never go higher than a particular level and unknowingly we are confining ourselves...
Sometimes we think we have learnt it well, but we understand our error when we commit an error, so we must always have had enough practice or experience... which we sometimes do not want ....

The World of Random Thoughts

This is my first post. It feels nice to have this blog. Here we will be discussing, talking, criticizing, appreciating various issues, events and many things..
As the name suggests, the things will be all random thoughts.. A blog where we can discuss out, about various unscrutinised thoughts playing in our heads.. Lets see how things work out...